I have been feeling very heavy lately, in spurts but heavy nonetheless.
I started with trying to thin out my wardrobe and start donating things. It’s a slow process, because I am out a lot, but it’s going well and I feel like it will really force me to be efficient and selective about property/objects/things.
Next, it’s time for me to stop buying food or eating food that just floats around the office (or my house even). A lot of the random eating is due to boredom, sometimes it’s anxiety. I think I have some excessive days, but lately I don’t care for most of the treats that pop up at work. I do have a habit of buying coffee and/or lunch, so I will work on that.
Finally…I have a hard time saying no to going out. On one hand, I don’t think it’s healthy for me to stay inside and avoid people. On the other hand, I’m tired of people who make me tired. I respect myself too much these days to continue interacting with people who make me feel small or trigger negative feelings in me (whether or not it’s their fault or not). It may seem more natural to just “work on” not feeling small or being triggered, but in general, I don’t find it necessary anymore to appease someone who treats me badly.
I want to make some wonderfully well-thought out sentence on excess consumption consuming me, but I can’t.
In short: goodbye excess stuff, excess food, and excess people.